Dealing with anxiety and having kids

Dealing with anxiety and having kids is a terrible thing to have to fight through. You're scared of everything, even your own kids sometimes. You do everything in your power to feel pretty and feel confident. Your worry that your family, your friends, your kids, and strangers can see you. Can see you're a huge fake and don't belong. Then you might have some good days where you feel amazing and can take over the world. Each you want to do is hold on to that feeling forever. What helped me is knowing that I need medicine (meds may not be for everyone) and that its ok to feel down sometimes so I give myself 30 mins- a day to feel sad every 2 weeks then i get up and find something I know that makes me happy and push myself to do it then makes the day a little easier and even though I HATE looking in the mirror I close my eyes and tell myself how beautiful I am in the third person and then open take a nod and walk away then I get back to my day and at the end of the day after everything I let myself just go, lay down then fall asleep. I always tell myself you are enough and I believe you should too.